Category: God
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A Reminder of Just How Much I Need God
I learned a very important lesson on Monday about just how much I need God in my life. Earlier in the day, I had fallen into the sin of masturbation because I was feeling kind of insecure about myself. I began experiencing these feelings of insecurity after spending some time over the weekend with a…
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Cultivating Joy
I was reflecting the other day on why I have done little to resist the temptation to fall into sexual sin, and I came to the conclusion that one reason may be that I am not doing enough to cultivate joy in my heart. My relationship with God has grown so cold, so sterile, and…
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More Signs of Healing
Over the last several weeks, I have seen more signs of healing in my life. For one, I am really experiencing a fairly strong attraction to women. Thanks be to God! This is a true blessing. Unless you have experienced the cross of homosexuality, you cannot know how difficult it is to have no appropriate…
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More on Focusing on Doing Good
Several weeks ago, I wrote a post on a talk my Courage chaplain gave, in which he talked about the need to focus on doing good rather than simply avoiding evil. I began thinking about this more on Easter Sunday when I was listening to a program on the local Christian radio station. In this…
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An Interesting Week
This has been a pretty interesting week in my spiritual life. Last Sunday, I was really longing for a man’s companionship, particularly a man who I had met the night before. Usually when I feel like this the temptation to masturbate is very strong, and it was last week. Unfortunately, I gave in to the…
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A New Start in My Spiritual Journey
Yesterday, I started meeting with my new spiritual director for the first time. I recently decided to stop seeing my former spiritual director because I was having some doubts as to whether I could trust him anymore. It was a bit sad and a hard decision to make, but I think it worked out for…
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Focusing On Doing Good, Not Just Avoiding Evil
On Tuesday night, our Courage chaplain gave a talk about the need to focus on doing good and performing acts of virtue in the spiritual life, rather than simply focusing on avoiding sin. This was a great topic for me, since I am certainly guilty on overly-focusing on my sins. I am constantly praying for…
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Repent and Believe in the Gospel
Today is Ash Wednesday, the day in which we receive ashes on our foreheads and are told by the Church to “repent and believe in the Gospel.” In addition to being told by the priest to “repent and believe in the Gospel” as he makes the sign of the Cross on our foreheads with ashes,…
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Trusting in God
Over the last couple of days, God has really been helping me to see some of the obstacles in my spiritual life that are preventing me from growing closer to Him and from having peace in spite of my circumstances. Last night, I was thinking about my friendships, specifically how I feel I don’t have…
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I Choose to Believe
I think I’ve identified a pretty major stumbling block in my spiritual life. I was praying before Mass started today, and I caught myself asking God to help me have faith. I think this is problematic because I don’t really need God’s help to have faith. It’s a choice that I have to make. I…