“Repent, and believe in the Gospel.” These were the words the minister said to me when she traced the cross on my forehead with ashes. When I got back to my seat, I thought about what these words mean to me. I do repent. I repent from masturbation, pornography, homosexuality, and lust. I’ve seen recently how horrible my sins are, and how contrary these particular sins are to the way I’m called to love as a man. But repentance is not a one and done deal. I need to repent every day. Every day I’m alive there’s the risk of believing the lies of these sins and falling into temptation.
I believe in the Gospel. But Lord, help my unbelief. Help me to believe with every fiber of my being that I’m so loved that you would die for me. Help me to believe that life isn’t anything more than pointless suffering. Help me to believe that eternal happiness awaits me if I perservere in my faith. Help me.
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