Category: Faith
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More Thoughts on the Cross
I was at Eucharistic adoration tonight, and I thought of something that I wanted to add to what I wrote this afternoon. I wrote earlier that I need to man up and fight the temptations that God has given me so that I can be purged of this attachment that I have to masturbation and…
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An Interesting Week
This has been a pretty interesting week in my spiritual life. Last Sunday, I was really longing for a man’s companionship, particularly a man who I had met the night before. Usually when I feel like this the temptation to masturbate is very strong, and it was last week. Unfortunately, I gave in to the…
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Jesus Never Gives Up–and Neither Should I
I was really struck by the Gospel reading from last Sunday, Feb. 7. In this reading from chapter 5 of the Gopsel According to St. Luke, we hear the familiar story about how Simon Peter and several other fishermen have been out on the lake all night but have caught nothing. When Jesus tells Simon…
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I Choose to Believe
I think I’ve identified a pretty major stumbling block in my spiritual life. I was praying before Mass started today, and I caught myself asking God to help me have faith. I think this is problematic because I don’t really need God’s help to have faith. It’s a choice that I have to make. I…
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Joy
Earlier this week, the chaplain of my Courage chapter gave a talk about joy. Joy is not an emotion that I have been feeling much of lately, unfortunately. For several weeks now, I’ve been feeling rather lonely and starved for friendship. Whenever I feel like that, it becomes very difficult for me to remain chaste…
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More Trials and Tribulations
Things continue to be very difficult for me in my struggles with chastity. Last night, I gave into my urge to masturbate without much of a fight. It’s a bit frustrating because I’m getting sick of committing and confessing the same sin over and over again. But I guess I’m just getting a little tired…
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Faith and Hope
The last several days have been difficult for me in my struggle with chastity. I was feeling very tempted to masturbate on Wednesday night, and I gave into this temptation several times. I also got in touch with a couple of men who I thought may have been interested in having a sexual encounter with…