Category: Masculinity
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Today I felt a general sense of longing for another man several times at the gym, in the shower afterward, and various other times during the day. I know that in the past my same-sex attractions (SSA) have been driven by a perceived lack of masculinity on my part as well as a desire for…
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What Does it Mean to be a Man?
One of the topics that my therapist and I touched on last Saturday was what I think it means to be a man. I told him that I thought one attribute of a man was physical strength. I said this in part because I have never been all that strong physically, and have never thought…
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Dealing With Emotions
This past weekend I learned a valuable lesson about the need to learn how to deal with emotions in a healthy way. On Saturday, I was feeling a bit lonely and angry with someone who is very important in my life, and I dealt with it by masturbating. Of course this is not a constructive…
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Manliness
I had a pretty good day today until tonight, when I let my loneliness and my feelings of insecurity about my manliness get the better of me and I fell into masturbation. I see the same pattern repeating over and over again: I feel this desire for masculinity, which I feel that I am lacking,…