Category: Trials

  • Today I felt a general sense of longing for another man several times at the gym, in the shower afterward, and various other times during the day. I know that in the past my same-sex attractions (SSA) have been driven by a perceived lack of masculinity on my part as well as a desire for…

  • More Thoughts on the Cross

    I was at Eucharistic adoration tonight, and I thought of something that I wanted to add to what I wrote this afternoon. I wrote earlier that I need to man up and fight the temptations that God has given me so that I can be purged of this attachment that I have to masturbation and…

  • Trusting in God

    Over the last couple of days, God has really been helping me to see some of the obstacles in my spiritual life that are preventing me from growing closer to Him and from having peace in spite of my circumstances. Last night, I was thinking about my friendships, specifically how I feel I don’t have…

  • “For the Lord Your God is Bringing You Into a Good Country… Where You Will Lack Nothing” (Dt 8: 7, 9)

    Yesterday, during a meeting with a group from my parish, we were given this reading from Deuteronomy to meditate on: “Remember how for forty years now the Lord, your God, has directed all your journeying in the desert, so as to test you by affliction and find out whether or not it was your intention…

  • Trials and Tribulations

    This week has been a very difficult one for me. The problems actually started last week, before I went on my retreat. As I mentioned in my previous post, I was feeling a bit scared because I thought that God was calling me to a life that is very radically different than the one I…