• More Signs of Healing

    Over the last several weeks, I have seen more signs of healing in my life. For one, I am really experiencing a fairly strong attraction to women. Thanks be to God! This is a true blessing. Unless you have experienced the cross of homosexuality, you cannot know how difficult it is to have no appropriate…

  • What Does it Mean to be a Man?

    One of the topics that my therapist and I touched on last Saturday was what I think it means to be a man.  I told him that I thought one attribute of a man was physical strength. I said this in part because I have never been all that strong physically, and have never thought…

  • More on Focusing on Doing Good

    Several weeks ago, I wrote a post on a talk my Courage chaplain gave, in which he talked about the need to focus on doing good rather than simply avoiding evil. I began thinking about this more on Easter Sunday when I was listening to a program on the local Christian radio station. In this…

  • Christ is Risen, Alleluia!

    Happy Easter, everyone! This is easily my favorite time of the year. We’re finally done with all of the discipline of Lent, and now we get to rejoice in the resurrection of Jesus Christ! Last night, I attended a very good talk in which the priest asked a very important question: What does it mean…

  • Surrendering to God and Learning to Suffer

    First of all, let me start by wishing you all a happy Palm Sunday! We are entering the holiest week on the liturgical calendar, and I’m sure that I’m not the only one who finds it emotional to recall the passion, death and resurrection of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I’m finding it much…

  • An Interesting Week

    This has been a pretty interesting week in my spiritual life. Last Sunday, I was really longing for a man’s companionship, particularly a man who I had met the night before. Usually when I feel like this the temptation to masturbate is very strong, and it was last week. Unfortunately, I gave in to the…

  • A New Start in My Spiritual Journey

    Yesterday, I started meeting with my new spiritual director for the first time. I recently decided to stop seeing my former spiritual director because I was having some doubts as to whether I could trust him anymore. It was a bit sad and a hard decision to make, but I think it worked out for…

  • Focusing On Doing Good, Not Just Avoiding Evil

    On Tuesday night, our Courage chaplain gave a talk about the need to focus on doing good and performing acts of virtue in the spiritual life, rather than simply focusing on avoiding sin. This was a great topic for me, since I am certainly guilty on overly-focusing on my sins. I am constantly praying for…

  • Dealing With Emotions

    This past weekend I learned a valuable lesson about the need to learn how to deal with emotions in a healthy way. On Saturday, I was feeling a bit lonely and angry with someone who is very important in my life, and I dealt with it by masturbating. Of course this is not a constructive…

  • Scandal in San Francisco

    I recently learned that there is a very serious scandal in a parish in San Francisco called Most Holy Redeemer. Unfortunately, it appears that this scandal has been going on for some time now. For those of you who may not be aware, Most Holy Redeemer is located in the Castro neighborhood of San Francisco,…