Category: Loneliness
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God’s Love
Today I had a very interesting insight into some of the feelings that I havebeen experiencing lately. Over the past couple of months I’ve been strugglingwith feelings that I assumed stemmed from loneliness. I’ve had what has at timesbeen a very strong longing for companionship, particularly with other men. Butrecently I’ve noticed that this feeling…
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Today was a good day. I spent a few hours with some friends having lunch. I’m really thankful to God that I have a pretty good group of friends to spend time with. But I still feel a sense of longing and loneliness at times. I felt it last night at the New Year’s Eve…
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An Interesting Week
This has been a pretty interesting week in my spiritual life. Last Sunday, I was really longing for a man’s companionship, particularly a man who I had met the night before. Usually when I feel like this the temptation to masturbate is very strong, and it was last week. Unfortunately, I gave in to the…
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Dealing With Emotions
This past weekend I learned a valuable lesson about the need to learn how to deal with emotions in a healthy way. On Saturday, I was feeling a bit lonely and angry with someone who is very important in my life, and I dealt with it by masturbating. Of course this is not a constructive…
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Joy
Earlier this week, the chaplain of my Courage chapter gave a talk about joy. Joy is not an emotion that I have been feeling much of lately, unfortunately. For several weeks now, I’ve been feeling rather lonely and starved for friendship. Whenever I feel like that, it becomes very difficult for me to remain chaste…
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Manliness
I had a pretty good day today until tonight, when I let my loneliness and my feelings of insecurity about my manliness get the better of me and I fell into masturbation. I see the same pattern repeating over and over again: I feel this desire for masculinity, which I feel that I am lacking,…
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The Horror of Sin
So last night my loneliness got the better of me, and I fell into masturbation and pornography. I really wish that I could learn that my sexuality is not to be used as a drug to alleviate any kind of negative feelings I may be having, including loneliness. But it’s just not sinking in fast…
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Exhausted
Well, the title of this blog post pretty much sums up how I feel today: exhausted. Spiritually, emotionally, and physically exhausted. I’ve been feeling a little lonely and starved for attention over the past couple days, and that’s never a good thing. The devil always like to mess with me when I’m feeling that way.…