Over the last couple of days, God has really been helping me to see some of the obstacles in my spiritual life that are preventing me from growing closer to Him and from having peace in spite of my circumstances. Last night, I was thinking about my friendships, specifically how I feel I don’t have many friends right now and that I am not as close as I would like to be to the friends I do have. Then I had a thought that has crossed my mind several times before: how I probably wouldn’t be happy even if I had 100 best friends. I believe that this is true because when God is not the center of your life, and when you look for happiness in something other than God, like your friends, you usually feel dissatisfied.
“So what is the answer to this problem?” I asked myself. The answer is is that I need to learn to trust God. I need to trust that He has given me all of the friends that I need. This doesn’t mean that I don’t need to reach out to people and try to make new friends, but it does mean that I don’t need to worry so much about how many friends I have. If I need more friends than I have now, God will give them to me. If He doesn’t, I can only assume that I don’t need any more friends to help me in my walk with the Lord. This will help me not look for the “quick fixes” to my loneliness, particularly homosexual encounters, masturbation, or pornography.
The same goes with the friends I have now. I need to trust in God that my relationships with the people who are in my life are exactly the way they are for a reason. Again, this does not mean that I shouldn’t work on my relationships with people, but it does mean that I don’t need to worry about how many close friends I have.
Trusting that God will provide for me is the only way that I am going to be happy in spite of the trials and tribulations I sometimes find myself in.
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